At every turn, I notice synchronicities. I see that nothing happens without a reason. Tears and joy, sadness and grief come and go, one after another, but somehow, all of it has meaning.
Recently, magic appeared too. It came into the middle of my painful reality and took me completely by surprise.
Whenever I sit there feeling that I truly have no strength left and ask for even a brief moment of relief, something arrives in one form or another. This time, it was magic.
I do not know whether it has come only for a moment, whether it will stay longer, or perhaps even remain for good.
I do not know… and I am afraid of not knowing. But I am grateful that it is here. I am trying with all my strength not to create scenarios, not to expect anything, but simply to be.
It is incredibly difficult when you have spent your whole life living through expectations, writing stories in your head, planning how things “should” be, only for disappointment and tears to come when once again, life did not unfold the way you had expected.
So I am afraid. And when I am afraid, I look for answers and signs telling me what to do.
Recently, I came across this sentence:
“Happiness is reality minus expectations.”
It settled deep within me straight away. How beautiful, simple, and yet so difficult to live by.
For the past three days, I have repeated it like a mantra whenever fear appears because “I do not know”:
“Happiness is life minus expectations.”
And I tell myself:
“So, my dear, enjoy the magic that has entered your life, and do not analyse how long it has come to stay…”